I shuffle through ankle-deep crisp and crunch. All these leaves are sepia beautiful; they vary only in their shape. Pin oak, cottonwood, ash, and elm. But below this maple, a blanket of gold lays full-circle ‘round her graceful trunk. Twenty-five years I’ve watched her undress and dress, but the fascination never fades.

A few cut-offs from the new construction project mingle with yard tinder for this early morning fire. Match lighted before the break of day, hoping to be done before the winds come with the mid-morning sun. Bunches of low clouds already romping across the sky, south to north.

I rake a rogue torch back into the fire. Too many dry leaves poised to catch and fly.

My own forecast of a long winter compels me to capture video of these gentle flames and soft vertical smoke. I’ll replay it on repeat some dark cold day as I squeeze out pen lines on paper.

A golden lab watches from his deck rail across the way. A wisp of smoke makes me sneeze. He barks. Next sneeze is a fake teaser; he barks again. I belly laugh at our joke. We, and only we two, share this peaceful morn. And we are enough.

I am grateful.

Thank you Father.

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Ojo Caliente, just a few minutes north of Santa Fe, had not yet developed into the luxurious spa resort it is today when I got lost there. I’d heard a frail young woman on the train tell how its waters helped her illness. She planned to return there after the next surgery on yet another part of her brain. I unfolded my New Mexico map and searched the northeastern quadrant for tiny font spelled in Spanish.

The last stretch of road was as dry and dusty as I expected. It was early March and the midday sun felt good as I walked the premises looking for humans or a welcome center. No wind. Sparse clouds. Blue sky. One old building looked like a boarding house from any old western movie so I knocked, with knuckles and voice, and entered.

Choices explained to me all seemed reasonable: $20 for a full day to try each of the five different mineral pools or $60 to include the night in the old hotel and breakfast in the morning. After dropping my backpack on the bed, I decided to explore the nearby area and try the pools after supper.

The bluff behind the main building was easy to scale. I was raised in northeastern Colorado with similar caliche bluffs as my playground. I wandered those home pastures for days as a child, never once disoriented. However, soon, too soon, I was lost. Read more

Have you ever felt invisible?

Was it a pleasant feeling or a sad one?

From my porch, coffee in hand, I watch these “invisible” critters.

Over there, a young buck – invisible in the shadows of the trees. Fresh velvety antlers the color of tree bark. The muscles of his neck thick from carrying the weight of his developing rack. He’s not ready to be seen.

At the other end of this acre, a doe tries to be invisible – and silent. It’s six o’clock, predawn, and her wet fawn is still finding its legs, staggering under momma’s cleansing tongue. To be visible is too dangerous.

An invisible hawk passes overhead, revealed only by her huge shadow gliding over the grass. Silent. My eyes jump toward the sky. She’s visible for only a second as she soars through branches and beyond the woods. Read more